Im not scared of judgement or opinions. Its not my first and im getting an ear tat in a couple hours ive been looking at for 2 years and always kept wanting and now my brain goes "but i like my ear like this so much too" and scared ill miss it. Its not even any major ink splat, more a few thin lines that the artist made follow the flow of the ear nicely cause i care to follow bodily shapes instead of interrupt them :d
I had the same before my other tats and piercings, plus regret for 3 days after and then after id just be sad if theyd magically disappear overnight.
I dont get spontaneous tats, i always tell myself if i still want it in 2-3 years i can have it. But its eating me to the point i wake up anxious several times and dreamt some bs tonight that the tt artist messed up and accidentally tattooed nyc skyline over my face xdd i have no clue why that tbh hahah
I can even see that if i canceled now it wouldnt leave my brain that i want it and id get it anyways down the line
I even checked and removal for such a small area wouldnt even be too badly pricy and id enjoy scars in that pattern in case id have them after. But the bad anxiety about wanting to cancel isnt leaving and driving me lightheaded. I am a very anxious person but working on it. The previous ones i got by just pushing through and being happy i did after.
Doing some breathing is calming and all but how do i deal with the root of thisss aaaa