u/Deedpool77

My wife and I started our open journey with swinging but she claimed to be seeking more from the relationships so we switched to solo open dating. I kept it fairly casual And not too frequently. She sought after more meaning full relationships which didn't seem to work out for here, combined with that experience and her insecurities of me with others only when solo. We decided to close it up again. Though I can help but miss those past experiences and miss the possibilities of continuing to sexually explore. I'm unsure I'll ever let go of those thoughts. Like those past experiences mean the cats out of the bag and going to be really had mentally to put it back in the bag. Has anyone else had this struggle with closing?