u/Decrepit_Soda

I keep trying to stop SH and I stop for a little then I go back to doing it again even worse than the last plus I genuinely don’t have the strength or desire to live. It’s really starting to affect my daily life and it’s pushing people away cause I can’t hide it anymore how awful I feel. As suicidal as I am, I’m scared I might actually going through with it. I have a therapist but I have no idea how to bring this up to her and what happens after I tell her I’m suicidal and SH? I’m worried it’ll just make things worse and it’ll be better to figure it out on my own

I’ve had sleep paralysis for a while, I’ve seen and heard scary things but this is the first time where I literally could not breathe. I could see everything in my room, couldn’t move and no matter how hard I tried I couldn’t breathe at all for ~10 seconds and it really hurt. After it ended, I was breathing like crazy and I’ve never had breathing issues at all in the past so I’m just very confused.