I'm not here looking for an AM match, I just want to ask your opinion about why no one wants to date me. I have never really dated in the past, had a relationship when I was 15 but it went nowhere, I tried to date using apps in my early twenties but I was never really serious about it. I spent most of the time working towards my career. I come from a lower middle class family, my parents were open with me that they can not send me to a private college when I was deciding to take PCM or PCB (they did pay a heafty amount to get my brother educated, but that is another story) I choose PCB in the hopes of becoming a doctor knowing my 11th and 12th will be the last time my parents will pay for my education. When my classmates were having fun and enjoying their teenage life, I was studying hard. It was my only option there was nothing I could do. And I cleared NEET in my first attempt, and got into AIIMS Delhi. I was really happy, and since it didn't cost a lot my parents didn't object me and I was able to study. The same thing repeated in my ug days, while everyone around me were enjoying their youth I became the outcast, the nerd who always study. I cleared NEETpg in my first attempt again, and was able to pursue MS in AIIMS Delhi. My parents tried to stop me from doing it, because they wanted me to get married before my brother. My uncle stepped in and talked with them, allowing me to do it. My entire first year got wasted, because I had to deal with searching for a bride for my brother who lived in delhi at that time. I was under a lot of academic stress at that point of time, so the idiotic me focussed on studying for the next two years too. I cleared the NEETss on first attempt but couldn't get into AIIMS Delhi. I begged my parents to let me take a drop, but they refused. It was either get married or join NIMHANS so I took it. I met an absolutely great professor there who helped me write 3 internationally recognised research papers. It was hard but finally I was done. I got a job at 48lpm due to my professor recommendation letter. It has been a year, and I have tried to date during this past year but I couldn't find someone. All I get are comments on being too old, or being a nerd. I don't consider myself the most attractive person in this world, but I am above average. Most dates I get are either with divorced men, or men looking for a free meal. I stopped going to clubs, when a group of people in their mid twenties criticized me for attending clubs when patients are dying. Was I wrong to not marry someone at a young age? Was I wrong to desire to become successful? Or Was I wrong to focus on my career insted of having fun. I don't even know why I am typing this, maybe it is just rant about it to someone other than my dairy.
TLDR: I fucked my life up by studying