i was just wondering if anyone here arrange their landscape for their dragons or do you just put some viking houses and dragons wherever you want like me? lol
i was planning on arranging them to look pleasing and to have space for future buildings and dragons, because everything is just everywhere but idk where to start. are there ways of arranging the buildings or is it just up to the player?
whenever i feel overwhelmed i always smoke cigarettes. i started smoking nung 16 ako, nakaka 1 or 2 cig lang ako. pero as time went by mas lumalala yung mental health ko and mas naglelean ako into smoking. now i'm 18, nakaka 4-6 cig ako sa isang araw. may mga araw na kapag ubos na yung cig ko nanginginig ako and di ako mapakali. parang naging pang-pakalma ko yung sigarilyo. i'm not proud of smoking kasi sobrang aware ako sa sarili ko na i'm addicted to it and masama siya for me pero hindi ko rin mapigilan sarili ko kasi yun yung nagiging escape ko whenever i'm in the verge of hurting myself or ending myself.
i can't stop and i don't know how to stop. i tried everything para lang hindi ako mag-smoke pero i always go back to it.
i'm in my dark place again lately and i'm barely holding on by distracting myself. kanina lang while i was staring at something i had the urge to hurt myself. i reached for my blade, and idk anong pumasok sa utak ko na magpatugtog ng music while sh. after that, bigla ko na lang naisip na sobrang fucked up ko talaga like i can't even describe what i was feeling before and after. i just had the urge. i really need to get myself check pero wala pa rin talaga message doctor ko sakin para sa follow up appointment ko.
i just want to share this if someone here experience the same thing or something close to that. hindi ko na talaga alam gagawin ko. i'm one problem away from ending my life.
i need hookfang to finish a quest that is also on weekly awards this season (finish 3 quest). i'm thinking of getting it by runes since i could recover it from daily runes for being a dragon rider.
should i get hookfang by runes? are there other ways to get hookfang or it's only on card pack and runes? 🥲
nakaka-takot mag aral sa college when you're mentally tired. i'm a gap year student. sabi ko before after shs magpa-pahinga talaga ako even though nag take ako ng entrance exams sa mga universities (na-fomo lang ako hahaha). my mother left me and my sister nung bata pa kami for another family and my father died before pandemic. yung lola and my half-siblings from my father nag-alaga saming dalawa. may issues na kami sa mga ate ko before na sana di na lang daw kami nabuhay, pabigat lang daw kami sa buhay nila, na kami yung reason bakit namatay papa namin. before iniiyak ko lang siya kasi wala ako magawa but then napuno ata sila kaya pinalayas nila kami and now lolo ko na nag-aalaga samin.
months after graduation nagka-problem naman ako sa relationship ko and i think mas lumalala yung mental state ko kasi isa siya sa mga taong nasasandalan ko and nawala siya. my friends are also there pero ayoko maging burden sakanila about sa mga nangyayari sakin. so i rotted in bed for weeks that turned into months. yung sabi ko na magwowork ako hindi matuloy-tuloy kasi kahit na sobrang kailangan ko siya hindi ko magawa. i feel like a waste of human being. para akong walang kwenta na humihinga lang. i tried cutting and hanging myself pero i'm still here. i don't know why buhay pa rin ako after all the attempts. i also smoke cigarettes like a lot kasi when i'm overwhelmed like yun lang nagpapakalma sakin. i talked about this sa doctor ko pero as i said nga sa post ko before i felt ignored kaya parang walang nagbabago sakin. ayun lang, gusto ko lang to ilabas since
it's getting heavy again and yung mga distraction ko to keep this off of my chest and mind is not that helping.
should i gamble on seasonal bounty packs or save up for dragon costumes? if i save up, what dragon or costumes are worth buying?
i had my follow up appointment last monday sa pgh. it's my third time this month. my session started with my doctor asking kung ano raw ba nararamdaman ko etc. then i started talking about being lonely and emotionally burden sa mga tao na nakapaligid sakin every time i try opening up so sabi ko hindi ko talaga kaya and some other things like sh and relationships. after session, my doctor's only advice is to talk to friends or someone and then suggested an app for me to try to help me with my everyday mood and wala naman masama if i try the app daw. at first parang natawa ako na ewan sa sinabi niya kasi nabanggit ko nung unang session namin na nag try na ako ng mga apps before to help me get better pero wala talaga. sabi ko na lang it-try ko since paubos na oras ng session ko.
idk if oa lang ako pero somehow i felt ignored..? i was really hoping for some good evaluation rather than suggesting an app. also, wala pa siyang binibigay na diagnosis sakin. okay lang ba yun? and our next session is bibigyan niya na ako ng meds to help me.