u/Decent-Cake7989

It's strange, but that's what I sometimes feel. I'm a woman (24), and sometimes I imagine myself looking like a man and it makes me feel free. I want to believe it's just a random thought, like when you change your hair color and your life feels better for a few days, but then it goes back to how it was. But sometimes I just think about it, and I don't like how I see myself. I have breasts, hips I'm a woman, and somewhat attractive but honestly, that's not something I care about that much. I just want to feel like myself. I've been trying to make small changes to see how I feel. I don't feel like myself when people call me by my real (female) name, so I've been using a more neutral name with people who don't know me yet and it makes me feel good. I've also had moments of euphoria when I cut my hair short. It makes me feel more like myself. I don't know why, but it does. I recently started dating guys and this thought is always in my mind: this isn't me, he sees me as a woman and he likes that about me, but I don't like it at all....

I'm afraid of being labeled as trans. I want to believe that what I'm going through is something else, and at the same time I don't know if I should listen to myself or keep ignoring this. Part of me hopes that talking to a psychologist would help me understandthat maybe this is just who I am, and that that's okay. Or something like that.I've been having these thoughts and questions for 5 years and I don't know any trans people in my real life, so that's why I'm here, looking for some kind of help

Tuve un ataque de pánico + una fuerte disociación del entorno la última vez que tuve uno, (horrible experiencia) demás de que me cuesta horrores concentrarme y retener información asi que peor fue cuando me agarró eso por qué todo se esfumó de mi mente, si, debería ir al psicólogo pero ahora no cuento con el dinero, así que necesito no se, opciones

Arranque la facu este año, curso por la mañana, nunca tuve la costumbre de comer o tomar algo por la mañana, siento el estómago vacío ahora que estoy en clases pero no me alcanza para comprar algo todos los días en el buffet, creo que intentaré levantarme mas temprano y comer algo en mi casa, pero se que mucha aveces simplemente me voy a olvidar por qué es una costumbre que no tengo, supongo que queda forzarme a tener el hábito no lo se, creo que la actividad en clase y ver qué la gente come algo me está despertando el hambre que no tenía a esas horas...

Estoy por empezar a vender comida, llevar en mi bolso y vender por qué que curso por la mañana y muchos estudiantes tiene hambre (yo también), tenemos un buffet tipo kiosko, supongo que yo tendría que vender algo que ellos no tengan o algo asi (?), me gusta la idea de vender sandwiches de miga de diferentes sabores pero no sé si me la estoy complicando, también he notado que no venden muchos cosas dulces, tal vez bizcochuelo? No se, ayuda, tengo una compañera que vende pizza pero a mí se me complica hacer lo mismo por que mi horno no sirve

Hi! My name is Lian, I'm 24 years old (f) and I'm from Argentina. My Spanish is neutral. I need to practice English, and in exchange, I can teach Spanish. My English is basic; I find it very difficult to speak and write, but I can read it quite easily. I'm willing to exchange audio messages or calls to practice. I'm a bit shy and introverted, which might make it harder for me to speak English. DM me if you're interested ✨