u/DebutantDismay

I should preface, I am demisexual, so physical appearance is kind of a moot point to me compared to the safety of a relationship. I have only ever experienced sexual attraction from the relationship itself, not from the physical appearance of a person. I like that my boyfriend looks like a viking, but a belly or abs mean nothing to me. He does not believe me when I say this, but it's not a battle I find worth the time to fight. I take care of my appearances for masking sake, I am good with makeup and try to eat healthy and present a vibe so that social interactions are easier. I just generally don't understand all the hostility about people gaining or carrying any weight. Like, sure, society pushes it, but people grasp onto it like its their whole personality. Scientifically, weight gain is pretty... logical?

I have just seen so many people make so many boasts about their superior intellect, and then turn around and say someone is ugly for 20 extra pounds. What is that? Do they have no artistic diversity in their mind? I think bodies can be esthetically appealing no matter the gender or weight. Wrinkles and different hair textures all growing in different ways. Different waists and butts, boobs and shoulders. The slow growth of grays with wisdom. It's all so interesting to see.

A lot of people even say they are body positive but will show so much joy if an ex gains 10 pounds. What is the logic? My ex gained some weight, and frankly, I think he looks healthier now, but people keep bringing it up to me like it should thrill me that he put on weight. They are so excited to tell me he has a belly now, and I want to please them by caring as much as they do, but I don't care.

I'm really bored with beauty, only being considered these rail thin starved women with the same face shape and over muscled men who drink nothing but coffee and testosterone for breakfast. Discussions at the office involving anything to do with hot actors are hell for me. I just answer with Keanu Reeves because that seems like a good answer that people will accept.

I really wish my brain could just operate normally. I really don't get why people are so intense about this.

Just got the IEP assessment back from my daughters school. It went how I assumed it would with a high masking middle school age girl with an Autism 1 diagnosis. Her professional assessment is so well done (they had it!), and they came back with "Mild autism that only shows up at home and is educationally irrelevant."

Dear God, I had to buy 20 plants at the garden center to prevent myself from emailing them back and using the word asinine in regards to their poorly written assessment. She has an autism advocate, and I'm going to talk to them before the meeting with the school. I'm just filled with rage.

Mild autism... in Temple Grandins' America. For fuck sake.