u/DebaucheryRegime

I was abused physically and emotionally before entering a relationship, and was not the best partner in my most recent relationship because of it. I feel like I am missing out on something I was supposed to have. I regret so deeply dating this person unhealed. This person understood me more than any partner i've ever had. Same sense of humor everything. We only dated for about 6 months, but traveled to 5 different countries together. We both work seasonally and are back in the same area. It's killing me acting like we don't know each other. I hate knowing I had something good and wasn't able to receive it. I feel so guilty and terrible. I love him so much. I am so deeply broken and hurt. I'm so exhausted. I want this feeling in my chest to stop so bad. I hate the physical pain of a breakup.