Hey everyone,
On Friday April 24, I (M, 27) drank way too much, completely blacked out on the train ride home, and have almost no memory of the journey. I woke up with vomit on my shoes, a bad hangover and a huge memory gap.
At first I was just embarrassed, but then the anxiety hit me like a truck. I keep obsessing that someone might have assaulted me while I was unconscious. I have had no real pain, no bleeding, no discharge yet still convinced me that something had to have happened. My brain won’t stop with the “what ifs”. I’m terrified I might have caught HIV.
I have a PCR test booked for day 13 (this Thursday). I’m counting the hours.
I feel so tired due to all the anxiety and am at my wits end. How does my brain come up with stuff like that? I will probably take this lesson and never drink as much as to lose control or blackout.
So here are my questions:
Has anyone experienced something similar?
Is a PCR test at day 13 actually reliable? How accurate is it at that point? Has anyone here tested around then and found it reassuring?
Should I take a 4th gen test at day 30 to confirm when negative?
The anxiety is destroying me. Any experiences or words of advice would mean a lot right now.
Thank you.