u/DeadlyCrystalUnicorn — reddlx

I don't know why I'm always so unlucky in love. I just can't seem to interest anyone beyond friendship. Yet, I don't think I'm that bad... it's so distressing. It always ends like this when I fall in love: I suffer, I'm consumed by anxiety and the knowledge that I am not liked back. I stop eating and being productive (more than usual), and I cry for no reason. My heart doesn't slow down, and I start shaking uncontrollably, feeling nauseous and dreaming about them at night.

And I can't forget them. They're always kind and calm and never turn down my invitations to hang out, but at the same time they're always so cold and distant. They don't let me get closer. They're driving me crazy. And I want them so much. I hate them and I want them, damn it. Oh my, why didn't I stay home that afternoon we met?...