u/Dazzling_Annual8238

Just discovered old history on my husbands google account of him flirting with men, talking about “i have a husband but i’m discreet” and saying things to them like “i’m married but i want to experience new things.” like why? my first ex cheated on me and now him… are any gay guys truly loyal to one person? i’ve never cheated on him and i don’t want to but everytime i read those things my heart hurts more. Him wanting to experience more is perfectly fine, but why hide it? i asked him in the past many many times before we got married if we would be fine together and he wouldn’t need to have an open relationship and he told me no of course not, yet here we are..

My (21M) Husband (25M) is hiv+, and taking treatment and currently has an undetectable load so we have unprotected sex. However as of last month my lymph nodes have been swollen, and i feel tired and have fevers.

I spoke to my husband about what would he do if i got HIV. I was told that “There’s no way you can have it unless you cheat on me with soneone else.” And so i’m scared to go get tested even though i think i caught it from him… I don’t want to know because i don’t want him to think i cheated.. i wouldn’t do that and haven’t.

But i’m also confused, Is there a way i could’ve gotten HIV even though he’s been on treatment our entire relationship? He has been without pills a few times but thats usually just for a month and he gets them back, and we avoid sex during those periods.