u/DarkHeartBlackShield

Now looking for my third therapist. Could not be worse timing. Been struggling with staying on this planet. Work and family life has me constantly on edge and my therapist has helped me address some of my issues but of course, today has been a day.

My first one I was seeing for a couple of years and she decided on a new job outside of social work. She was amazing.

Found another one and have been seeing her for a year and half. Also amazing. Also decided on another role.

So searching again. My current therapist sent me 5 referrals - all white people. Can't do it been down that road and they just could not understand the issues I was dealing with.

Sixteen months ago, I got rear-ended - car totaled. My cellphone slammed into my upper arm. Experienced lots of soreness everywhere: back, shoulders, legs, lower back - lots of soreness. Saw my primary, then an othropedist. Had x-rays, had MRIs - of my upper arm - that's important. Did all the things, then wound up in physical therapy for seven months. Within a month or so, mostly back to normal.

But the pain in my upper arm had never really gone away. It has progressively gotten worse and I've gone back to the doctor a few times. I'd get steroid shots or pain medication, but nothing has helped the pain. Several appointments and more meds or PT, but same result.

So, I went back again, in April. Primary doc says, okay, we will get a second opinion. She went ahead and ordered an X-ray because of course, in order to get an MRI, you have to get an X-ray first, even though the X-ray is not going show what's going on - what the doc needs to see. But insurance, am I right.

Saw ortho doc. He switched up my meds. My knees and hips have never felt better, but my shoulder still hurts. A lot. I get the MRI this morning and the tech says ortho doc should have my results in about 48 hours. MyChart, being MyChart, the results were updated a few hours ago. Looking at the results and I'm like, oh my rotator cuff is nearly torn, interesting. So yeah, yeah, that's where we are.