u/Dapper_Floor2319

Has anyone seen lemon trees in stores anywhere this year? I saw some a couple years back in Walmart but haven’t come across anything this year. Desperately looking for a potted lemon tree 🍋

28F

I know no one on here can say yes or no for sure, I’m just looking for some insight.

A bit of background - at 14 and 15 I was sexually assaulted by peers on multiple occasions. I also suffered from severe bullying and verbal harassment daily all throughout high school. A few years ago I expressed this to my psychiatrist and in combination with my symptoms they gave me a CPTSD diagnosis.

Here is where I question things. Growing up as a young child before any of that happened, I suffered from random symptoms and displayed weird behaviours, and now that I’m more educated in trauma, I understand that a lot of these symptoms can also be caused by trauma. Some of these symptoms/behaviours include:

- Extreme separation anxiety from my mom, this started very early
- chronic stomach issues with no apparent reason, I was forever at the doctor for nausea/diarrhea getting exams and ultrasounds that never amounted to anything. I would say this started around 2 years old.
- physical pain with no apparent reason
- intense emotions/anxiety
- obsession with genitals/sex, walking around naked when young
- constant headaches/migraines
- rebellious/not following rules
- extreme shyness
- low self esteem
- general nightmares

All of these began before I was 8. When I was assaulted starting at 14, I developed new symptoms and these previous ones became exacerbated.

I don’t remember much from my childhood. I had a good life, good parents, pretty spoiled, pretty stable home life.

I just keep wondering if it’s possible that something happened to me when I was so young that I can’t even recall it, but my body does.

Again, I know no one can say that something did or didn’t happen for sure. I also know that a lot of the symptoms I listed can just be general things that children go through, I would just like to hear others thoughts.

If you’ve read this far, I appreciate it, thank you!