I talk to myself so much that it's begging to concern me
I don't remember a time where I didn't talk to myself I always made up scenarios of ideal worlds I wish I was in making myself the way I wanted to be there been so many over many years but the issue is whenever I'm not watching or listening to something or rarely when I do talk to someone I'm in this world having full conversations and scenario with people like celebrities , shows I like , cc anything I really like at the time and I helps me feel less alone but I spend more time think about that than I do being present but that's not even when I'm concerned about is that I have conversations with my family or some of my friends or my therapist and I talk to them make up scenarios of things like us going out me telling them things I'm too scared to irl or just regular conversations but I do this a lot more that I even talk to them normally to the point I struggle to remember what happened and what didnt I say things like oh yeah we talked about this a week ago and they have no clue and I'm scared it scares me and makes me think I'm crazy and I'm not I just don't like how it makes me feel everything feels like blended together I can't distinguish what I made up and what actually happened and I don't know why I'm like this
(I'm really sorry ik this isn't written well)