u/DabaDonsDabCap

Every single moment my head is plagued by thoughts of sh and suicide. I cant find comfort in distractions anymore no gaming no art not even talking to friends. If I put the effort in then maybe I'd feel better but thats the thing, I'd hate feeling better.Sh is too addicting and I'm fully embraced in its grasp. I think the only way out is through either sh kills me or I let it go after a failed attempt. I don't really know anymore, no more emotional outburst no more tears, just me and one day away from snapping.