Literally stuck
I dont think I can carry on without top surgery. Ive had lows but now I'm mentally better it's literally just dysphoria that's left to deal with every day. Im gaining weight cause I can't work out and I never leave the house cause I'm to dysphoric , so no gym and not wearing my binder is suffocating. I denied uni cause I didn't want to wear a binder to class every day and still be insecure as hell about passing. I can't do anything without pain , Ive deformed my ribs from using binders my whole teens now adult hood. I'm 20. I'm so tired. Ive been referred finally after 5 years waiting on a GIC list. Now 7+ more years of waiting just to be most likely denied cause of my BMI.
I'm poor. Im an artist and too traumatized to work and be around cis men.
I can't afford private I can't work it off, and my finances just aren't working to do this private. All I can do is wait. More waiting. Endless waiting. I'm so tired
I just want to be comfortable and move on with my life. Everything Is quite literally on pause till I get top surgery.
I'm exhausted