I am not being taken seriously enough
Hello, I've been sexually assaulted in January by my ex friend and I suffered very badly because of it. I tried to report to the police about it but in the first stage of the report, they were already saying that they don't have enough proof. And I felt like I had to explain myself multiple times. So I didn't go through with the report because it made me re-live the whole thing without getting support.
I'm now in therapy and I'm glad that they do take it seriously there. Same goes for my family, friends and boyfriend. I'm glad that they are here for me because without them, it feels like I got a lot of injustice.
I tried to get compensation fund for what happened but they also just said that there is not enough information. And I probably might not get it. It triggers me a lot because it feels like I'm invalid and that it never happened to me.
I know that it caused me great harm. I was drunk and taken home by him without my clear consent. He remembered everything that happened and I have vague memories but they still give me a lot of pain. Because of my vague memories they can't get enough information.
But the fact that I was very drunk and can't remember much but him remembering everything and still going through with everything already explains how he literally assaulted me?!?!?!
I feel so sick and helpless. Why am I not getting any justice??? I'm so mad that he gets away with it. He even basically admitted it to me that he crossed my boundaries!!!
I just needed to rant about this because it makes me feel so shit.