u/DEARHELIXWHY

I've lived with my abusive father for all of my life due to him being my father. My country is a fascist hellhole and I'm both queer and disabled. My hobbies and interests are unusual and some are even enough to be considered unacceptable. I've never known the comfort of safety. I've never truly not been in danger. I'm so tired. Even my two fucking coping mechanisms don't help me with that; I can either masturbate to weird shit or cut myself, both are shunned. I shouldn't be alive. I don't have a real reason not to kill myself.

I'm bored. And obviously unwell mentally considering how I just cut myself. Bweh.