u/DASICKEE

Life fucked me over I'm Ugly, ND, and suck at convo I have no friends and never had a women look my way nor talk to me.

I've been friendless for 17 long years 17 years there's never been anyone who calls me a friends and ik why no one wants to be friends with the ugly kid now I'm a ugly 17 year old and next I'll be an ugly adult new rank of ugliness. There's nothing in my life that brings me joy makes me happy nor makes me want to live.

I wish reincarnation is confirmed someday

TLDR: 17 year old friendless hugless virgin and really ugly maybe inna another life tho

I'm 17 and yeah tbh I'm fucking ugly. I've never had friends real, fake, online, in person I've been alone from the start, my parents are starting to notice they stoped asking about friends in general not even bring up an idea of it. What's worse the 2 people who do talk to me (which neither give af about me and probably don't even like me) know it and thats all the point in my face, "yeah well ur friendless" or the typical ugly comments 2nd one isn't as bad but all I'll ever be to her is someone I send reels too she's still just as much as a dick but not as much. Everytime I'd ever playfully insult someone I call them things they aren't yk something so they won't feel bad but I guess no one will ever think like that for me it's just straight punch in the mouth for me. I've accepted it that I'll never have friends but I envy sm of you horrible people will always have someone near them. I wish being ugly didn't affect ur life and I fucking hate hearing people vent about their life just to bring up friends like omg ur life must be sooo horrible. Thats all I am to these people is someone they can vent too because they know I don't know anyone enough to tell it.

Sum up into shorter words I really fucking hate my life everything about myself and the people I'm forced to be with. Why couldn't I have been pretty I wish people could bear looking at me. I wish I could post myself on social media with no fear (as if I do to begin with) I want and wish for a lot of things that will never happen I'll forever have to talk to myself inorder to have someone understand me, I'll forever have to find a way to entertain myself because I have no one to talk to and when my parents die and it's just me I'll be alone forever where I'll finally die(alone)unless I diecide to end it early which I'm fine with no loss of a real life))

There is no social life for me. 17 and no person on this planet has called me their friend. It feels so dehumanizing and like I'm just something else. I really knew that when one of the 2 people who I talk at school said "yeah well at least I have friends I can spend money on" I knew no body respected me but to hear it out loud was something else.

But she's right I don't have friends even her from the comment she made it clear I'm not hers. But when she said it, it showed how replaceable I was. It angered me so much how I was stunned by her comment. Yah I don't have friends it's true no one on this earth talkes to me about their day, tells me the little side quest they do and no one called me their friend.

The closest I'll get to a true friend is looking at people and pretending I was included which feels so so so weird but as Ik I look weird for thinking that there's no one in my life that would call me to tell me that so yah.

TLDR: I picked the hardest difficulty in life and now I'm realizing the effect of it.

It's sucks I don't truely have an undying had for them but everytime I see one I wish fucing wished I could have to freedom they do. Unfortunately life have me the short stick I'm ugly, neurodivergent and I have zero friends.

The only people who talk to me are these 2 girls both don't even like me nor give af abt me I jus don't have anyone else to talk to so I can't just cut them off.

Just seeing people in a large group pisses me off the only place I can go to during lunch has these group of people (multiple) just sitting on the floor (WHEN THERE ARE TABLES OPEN) I can't go anywhere without being reminded of how lonely I am.

Even gaming wise, there are no gaming nights with the boys and they is no "squad" it's just me. Even my parents are starting to wonder IVE HAD TO MAKE UP PEOPLE just to get the off me saying "they don't go out much" instead of " there is no one"

What sucks more is the extrovert is most likely a horrible person but they just look good.

No matter where I go I'll always be reminded that there's no one I'm almost a senior in hs and I'll probably be the only person without a friend.

It just isn't im gonna be an adult soon yet most skills I should have socially is non existent. School besides from my grades is shit I talk to 2 people who both I don't even think like me and js are friends with me because they feel bad. I've never had much friends and I always had to watch from the sidelines. And god I envy them it's not like however it was where kids got bullied for liking anime or some shit like that. Those "weird kids" have friends yet I don't so it js enrages me when people say "oh yeah those people are weird" like I'm friendless with nobody that I think that would talk to me so what would that make me.The 2 people who do speak to me don't even fw me. The first one is in my city but not my school so their an online friend so I can only care as much as u can, she invited me to this thing for her school but she js ditch me there then said "sorry u couldn't hang with me" as if I was lucky to be hanging out with her or some. And the other I really don't like she's mean and all she does is js insult me she always has to say sum abt me. I've come to accept the real world truth and that is that nice people js aren't real.

TLDR: fuck you if u have friends

I have zero friends and everything in between. It's like no one can understand me I don't mean politically either even tho yes people can't understand my political beliefs as well but as a 17 year old I don't expect them too but adults don't understand me either. Ppl my age are focus on their world while it seems the adults continue to ruin it. There barely any good news now a days. As for people my age besides maybe one or 2 fandoms no people ever stay around or ever say "yeah I get it" because now it starting to seem no one ever will. People talk about how loneliness is bad and people should have friend yet for people to have friends is for someone to understand that person and accept them, unfortunately I'm one of those few who won't have any. And I accept it