u/D4nk_Hill

Context: I had no father figure for much of my childhood, the only man was basically my grandfather and he would drink all day and was very racist and honestly not that much of a man. Always on edge, depressed basically his whole life I knew him I believe. He was the only man I had to look up to, and now I realize how much his bad habits and attitude influenced me. He was a very complacent person. I struggled my entire life with confidence, anxiety and depression. I could never look someone in the eye, and while I am married and have 3 kids, I realized I have been a poor father and husband. I would have my wife basically handle any social interaction and make up sorry excuses and limiting myself.

I have been working on weight loss and just started lifting also taking 7.5g* Creatine. I lost 62 pounds in the last year, but it honestly wasn't enough, lifting and being more physically stronger is what did it. Its a night and day difference, I spent every day feeling sorry for myself.

I had my testosterone checked last year and it was in the 800s so I thought, well I guess I'm just depressed for life or I have anxiety or autism or adhd. Like I said earlier, I was just limiting myself. Getting up and walking and using my body to its fullest potential literally transformed my mind and it improved just about every aspect of my life. I'm more confident and keeping eye contact (something I've always struggled with). I spoke with a stranger for a few minutes (something I never do) and the conversation felt natural and good, and left me feeling happy and motivated.

I guess this is all just to say, get up and do the work, seriously force yourself. It's hard and takes a long time, but you will not regret it, there is a light at the end of the tunnel.

What the fuck is this?

My journey with confidence and being a man

Upbeat metal recommendations?

Any hidden gems for a new listener?