u/D-easy12

Hi, I live in u-city and I’m looking for someone who can teach me how to play guitar. This would be great if someone wants to meet new people, also willing to pay if you are a teacher.

I would love a FA to give me advice.

I’m 37, I began seeing a woman, 29. Initially we became friends but after a month of hang out we started to date. We didn’t do it sooner because she had hesitations on kids, she said she didn’t want to do that to her body and that she wanted to adopt. I wanted biological kids. She took 3 weeks and then said she can see herself having kids with me. I said are you sure? And to really think about it because I ended my last relationship because my ex didn’t want kids. She said yeah let’s see where it goes. I said I hope she would change her mind 6 months in.

It seemed like she was in love and the relationship seemed good despite some red flags about once a month due to small little arguments (one was she suggested we go to therapy 3 months in). So after dating for 6 months we had the kids conversation again and I said I would like to start trying by when I’m 40, she said no that’s too soon, to wait till I’m 45. I told no that’s too old, and to think about it because it’s a deal breaker. The next day she came back crying and said she couldn’t do it. I said ok and she left. I didn’t beg or try convincing her. Next day I drunk text her a song and she said she needed 30 days no contact. I said sorry and that it wouldn’t happen again and that I won’t reach out. 47 days later I broke that by texting her because two of her friends had added me on social media and I was wondering if it was her indirectly. She said no and sounded very cold and distant, said take care and goodbye. I couldn’t help but send a long message with my closure. I told her I respected her decision, that I wish we could have stayed friends, and that I’ll always hold love for her….she blocked me on WhatsApp. I was so hurt. I have blocked her everywhere now except phone and WhatsApp.

During the relationship she said she was a FA, that she felt safe and loved with me. Sex was really good (according to her, best she’s had). Initially when we broke up she seemed like she wanted to be friends.

What I’m asking is, will she ever reach out. I have remained no contact, and I’m finally starting to feel better. But I realized that I’m really in love with her and I don’t want to lose her but don’t know how to approach it from here other than give her spac.