u/Cyber_momo

I don't know if this only happens to me, so I thought maybe someone here would understand. When I talk to people, I find myself unable to see the other person. It's like every time I look at the person I'm talking to, I only see myself, reflected in their expressions. I'm constantly judging myself, and it's not fair because in a conversation I'm going to be judged by the other person anyway. At least I should be on my own side. I'm unable to see the other person, only myself. I suppose that's why everything other people say influences me so much, because I'm unable to judge them, only myself. I wish I could talk to people without having to worry about what they think of me. You know, have a normal conversation without analyzing every damn detail. I think I'd even be less mentally exhausted. Just going through life without feeling like someone's going to shoot me in the head at any moment.