Calling off work struggles
I’ve always struggled with calling off work but I feel like it’s even worse now. I lost my car back in November and ended up having to leave a job I actually liked (still had a problem with calling off but not as frequent). Now I work in a warehouse, barely get paid enough to make rent, and have to take the bus to work which is very new to me. The fact that I barely make enough for rent is reason enough to not miss any work but it’s like once I get it in my head to call off I just can’t change my mind.
I’ve called off l once almost every week so far. Coworkers are nice, manager is nice, job is super easy. I just can’t bring myself to do it somedays and I hate it cause I’m scared to be unemployed again. Along with BPD I also have CPTSD and was recently diagnosed with ADHD. I tend to get stuck in my head pretty easily, pretty prone to spiraling, and just feel so guilty for calling off but idk what to do about it. And ofc people don’t get it when I try to explain why I’m calling off.
I had a feeling yesterday when I was working that I was going to call off the next day (and I did) because I was having a hard time forcing myself to do my super simple job. Called off a whole 4 hours before my shift even started and now I’m just stuck sitting at home feeling bad about it