Best friend turned situationship turned dating turned friends again
A lot happened in a very short span of time and it’s been the wildest trip of my life… so we met at work a little over a year ago, I’ve got bad anxiety so I never really talked to her until 8 months ago, we were both depressed and in very bad places in our lives at the time borderline suicidal but somehow we just started texting, like all the time and we were there for each other and getting each other through the hard times she was dealing with a 7 year relationship ending and I was at the beginning stages of a divorce that wasn’t wanted by both parties. We continued texting all the time, starting calling and facetimeing every night for hours, hanging out whenever we could, took trips… we fell in love so god damn hard, we started flirting and telling things we’ve never told anyone before, getting closer than I’ve ever gotten with anyone it felt magical. We dated for a month and deep down we knew we lived different lifestyles, she is an alcoholic of sorts and a people person and I hate alcohol, have mental issues and bad anxiety so I’m more of a loner but a few months into the friendship/dating it hadn’t been an issue but it had its challenges that were out of our hands and she didn’t think we were any longer worth trying despite our hearts saying we were made for each other. Which leads us to now, haven’t seen her outside of work or spoken in the phone in over a month since this has happened but we’re friends, we talk everyday and have mostly normal discourse at work but she thinks things feel the same between us and I definitely don’t, it’s caused unwanted tension between us and personally I feel like I’m losing her… she’s the greatest thing to ever happen to me and while I’m heartbroken we’re not together I know with everything in me that my life with her in it is better than not.