I dropped out of college to work in fast food
Hello, I’m 19 and as the title states I had to drop out of university to work in fast food. I was supposed to get my bachelors in counseling, and during just one semester (this past spring) I struggled so much I nearly went homeless.
Everyday I’m off I’ve worked and anytime I had the freedom i would work. Just one cashier job and being a full time 12 credit hour student wouldn’t even give me enough to pay half of the rent as I make 13 an hour living in Pennsylvania (our minimum wage is 7.25). I live with my mother btw not with random roommates so there’s no option to “go home” as my name is on a lease. My mother and me both struggle together to pay the bills. By the end of the week I never have enough for groceries. All I do is struggle and I’m drowning in bills.
I had to make the decision i never thought I would make which would be to drop out of university. I just picked up a second job in fast food. I just feel like a failure. Like I failed myself and life. It’s hard enough in this economy how will I ever find a decent job? I have no degree. I plan on going to community college but only part time in the fall I’ll probably only take one class.
I just feel like everything is pointless. I went through an awful breakup where my ex borderline abused me. I lost all of my friends. I’m just devastated and alone.
My mother is also barely any help. I never get love or support from anyone around me. I don’t have much family aside from my mother. I feel awful about myself and life. I feel alone. I also go to therapy and I have one last session with her before I never see her again because the semester is over and I’m leaving. She was the only thing keeping me sane. I struggle so much and I can’t catch a break. The only joy in my life is my current boyfriend.