How do I keep off of coke?
I am almost two months clean today idk why but I have the biggest urge I’ve ever had for this shit. I was using consistent through the winter at least once every couple weeks. I’m happy I’m off it idk how to stay off. I keep myself busy but my mind just thinks of coke. I’m going to rehab in a month or so I guess that’s making me stressed and I wanna do it “one last time” bullshit excuses like this. I wish I never did coke of all the fucking things hell even percs (sister broke her leg and gave me 5 tecs) can’t hold a candle to coke for me idk what it is I can clearly see it is killing me jn real time. I often mix with ketamine or with benzos like I really don’t want it that’s why this is pissing me off. Idk how I can beat this it’s so easy for me to get and I can’t change that just go online even if you block a site you will find another it’s not like the last time I kicked it about 6 years ago back then it was a real dealer and ya I just had to move now is a fucking beast of a challenge I constantly know it’s just at my fingertips