Filing for divorce (finally)
I mostly just need to vent. I've been with my husband for six and a half years and I loved him so much. I married him because he has a huge heart and I genuinely believe he loves me. He tells me everyday how I'm his entire world and would do anything for me.
He is an alcoholic and has been dealing with this issue for pretty much our entire marriage. It's only gotten worse recently and I feel like he doesn't care about being sober. He basically wakes up every day at 7:00 a.m. goes out and buys alcohol and wanders around drunk until he comes home and needs a nap. Half the time he has no idea where he even is. We live in a city so it's easy to get around.
He stopped going to work despite having a pretty senior level job. When he's drunk he's a completely different person. He doesn't care about his friends or his family or his two children (we have a 2.5 and 1 yo). I stood by and supported him through it all. He went to rehab a few times, he had some run-ins with the law, but I genuinely believed he wanted to get better. The past two and a half months he's been in a bender the entire time. Only being sober for a few days at a time. I found out today that he also has been cheating on me. He slept with somebody he met in rehab, he's been inappropriately texting other people, on only fans, and he's been preemptively telling people that we're divorced and referring to me as his ex. Dealing with the alcoholism is hard enough but now I know he was cheating on me too and then telling people I'm his ex wife. Can't say I'm surprised.
It kills me to know that I stood by him for as long as I did thinking that he truly loved me and wanted this family to work. But how could anyone cheat on their spouse if that was true?
Anyway, I finally filed for divorce today after the threat of it for quite some time. I'm glad I can walk away.