u/Curzio-Malaparte

I’m 29 and the next youngest associate at my firm is 45. There are 14 other associates but I have seniority over them all, which was never a thought that crossed my mind till the other day. Anyone else who has been at my firm longer has become a partner—we had a rough time during covid but have since bounced back, hence the hellish turnover that leaves me being here the longest. I have been here since May 2022–was admitted to practice law in April 2023. Landlord tenant in NYC is a meat grinder.

Anyways, am I really supposed to be telling these old geezers who’ve been doing this forever what to do just because they’re new to our firm? One of them literally asked me what I want him to do the other day, because I allegedly have seniority over him. His words, not mine, but it got me thinking if I’m expected to step up now. Or if I’m being judged for humbly NOT bossing around these guys who are old enough to be my dad.

I’m still told by the partners not to give these guys certain files because they want me to handle them. Also, when we show up to court, I’m the one in charge of distributing the files to all the other associates who come with me to court that day, which essentially gives me discretion to mediate who gets to do what; I think this leaves a bad taste in some of the new associates’ mouths.

This post is spiraling, and I feel like I’m answering my own questions a little as I write it out.

TL;DR should I be enforcing my seniority over these guys even if it means they don’t like me? I basically know nothing and still consider myself a new attorney. For some reason this is all making me want to acquaint them with my unresolved anger issues.

If you don't believe in female attraction on semen retention, then ignore this post.

Ive been retaining for around 50+ days (this current streak) and female attraction is becoming too crazy now. I dress well but physically if you judge me first impression pretty average or close to average. But every single time I retain at least 2 weeks it's as if i'm a celebrity or women magically think i'm HIM. Obviously, i truly believe that retaining the seed and not choosing to waste it forces my body brain and energy to be much more "full" than depleted.

I noticed that everywhere I go women notice me young as 16 - 40+ and even guys either become super friendly or see me as a competition.

Here's 6 short female attraction on semen retention (already noticed it in week 2)

1. In the same day, near the mall i'm sitting in the typical centre chairs where people sit and there is a girl who walks straight towards me looking me in the eye and she drops down to "untie then tie to her shoelace" smirking and massive eyes on me

2. I go to a hotel's bar and just wanted to buy a can of coke and the mature cougar was so talkative with me and her eyes was just so visible how she lusted over me, then before I left i gave her kiss in the cheek

3. I'm in music practice and it was with a whole new team, the woman playing violin keeps touching my cymbals and i'm a drummer and so obvious her trying to be close to me and playful, which was weird "why you touching my cymbals" lol

4. This is crazy, even online when I videochat strangers, women are so open and always wanted to move to a phone call so exchanged numbers. Then those women who would be aggressive or loud to most guys, they are super femenine and playing with their hair and stroking it to the side as their chest are more visible.

5. I don't ask for pics let a lone crazy ones, yet girls be taking my storage for sending baddie or cute or you know pics... when i never ask them to.

6. I'm in a bubble tea shop and it's not very busy, but literally i see girls walking by and I know they have no intention but when they see me their body switches and they linger in the bubble tea shop, and several girls i'm not joking doing the typical: showing their butt close to me, or while sitting playing with their necklaces, hair or even staring at me as if i'm candy.

Yes, this is a massive ego boost at first especially i'm like 4.5/10 but i truly believe women can "sense" or "smell" a full sack.

So i no longer do this for women attraction because i feel like the "devil" or "enemy" or "matrix" wants me to relapse and that's why the women get hotter and feminine and seductive as I retain.

But in this journey i'm calling myself

"Prince of Purity" which makes me more respectful to women, not objectify them, and i talk to women more on cool topics and not sex.

Semen retention, changed my life.