TW: RAPE AND ABUSE
Hi, yes I broke up with him, yes we're no contact now, yes my sister is planning (I hope) to press charges. I'm just at a lost right now. I loved him. He loved me. He said I was everything to him. I got along with all his alters and all his family. We were happy. I was in a relationship with two other of his alters. We had been together for 10 months. We were going to celebrate our one year anniversary. Celebrate his abusive sister moving out. He gave me gifts, complimented me all the time. We had great compatibility sexually and romantically. Yesterday, I found out my bf had been cheating on me since the start of our relationship. With my sister. He had slept with her twice and had been kissing/doing sexual things with her too. Literally this Thursday he did it, and than two hours later slept with me. It started two weeks in. I broke up with him on the spot. I was heartbroken, no idea what to do, I mean, jesus. It was the reason my sister and I's relationship was progressively getting worse and I had no clue why. Then, ten minutes later, my mom came back to tell me that my twin said he had raped her. I ended up spiraling. The man I loved had hurt me and my sister in the worst way possible. I could not understand why. He had been through such horrible abuse too, I could not imagine him doing the same.
He swore up and down it was only twice and completely consensual. I didn’t believe him. His understanding of consent is lacking due to the abuse and his unwillingness to get help. Today, he texted me, saying that his body finally admitted to him that they had sex with my sister over 10 times. Much of which I presume was the rape. I don’t know what to do. I know it wasn't necessarily him, and he's freaking out, but I'm so devastated. I loved him. I still do. I miss him so much. I just want to run into his arms and kiss him and cry. I can't believe he did what he did and I can't believe it went like this. I don’t know how to feel. I don’t know how to move on. He was my first love, my first everything. Romantic partner. Sexual partner. He told me about his abuse. He said things to me he had never told anyone before. I thought we were special.. I'm obviously not going to get with him anymore/contact him, but I really need some advice on anything. I'm at such a loss. We're all so young. Barely adults. Why? Why is this happening to us? I feel helpless.