u/CurrentOccasion5115

sooo I just started watching Animal Kingdom and it's SO good (I'm in the middle of season 2). I'm just a little confused on why a lot of people who watch it hate Nicky. Like she's a little bit annoying but it's not unbearable enough for people to say they hate her and wish she died when she got kidnapped! 😭

Another thing, Craig is sleeping with a teenager???? And nobody bats an eye???? To be fair, there are definitely more pressings matters in the show but I haven't heard much about it in fandom spaces.

Hi guys. This might not be the right place to ask for advice but I don't really know where else to go. It's my first time posting on reddit so i don't really know all the rules... Anyways!

How i grew up wasn't exactly conventional. I lived with my grandmother, my aunt and uncle, and my 8 cousins. One of my cousins was my age and we were extremely close throughout my childhood. Like, you wouldn't find either of us without the other. I'm a little afraid of anyone I know finding this, so I'm gonna call her A.
When A and I were around 6/7 (haha i know) she started to ask me to play games with her. I'm sure you can put two and two together, it's not something I want to go into detail about online for the world to see because I'm still disgusted with myself lol.
This went on for a few years. Eventually my mother got custody of me back and I moved out of that house and I only saw A a handful of times during maybe holidays and summers. It happened then too. When I was around 9 (maybe 10? it's really a blur), I started to realize what we were doing and how inappropriate it was and I got uncomfortable. She tried to initiate things with me during a sleepover and I told her that I didn't want to, so A threatened me by telling her dad and saying I would get in trouble. I was pretty naive as a kid, it's probably helpful to note this. I was also a big people pleaser (another issue for another time), so I just let her. (idk if thats the best way to put it but I just didn't put up a fight so maybe this doesn't count). After that, I didn't want to hangout with her anymore so I didn't see her for a few years besides holidays and whatnot (and thats how it still is so ig its good?)

I know it messed me up pretty bad and i know i need help but i don't want her to get into trouble because we were both kids and her dad wasnt a good guy (he went to prison for saing his stepdaughter but idk if he did anything to her specifically). I still really love A because she's my family but idk how to get help without splitting up my family.

Also, I'm still a minor. My family isn't wealthy, my mom barely believes in mental health and medication/therapy for it. I've asked for therapy because of other mental health issues and she will not let me get it. (I've been sa'd by a friend and my mother knows this)

(P.S. this is not an invite for creeps to try and prey on me, ty)

If anyone has any advice, I'd really love to hear it because I'm stumped. I've never even really told anyone about this. Ty.