I’ve always been a hairy girly, lol. Like ridiculous amounts of hair everywhere even my stomach.
And I was thinking about this lately. When I was giving birth to my child I had to have an emergency c section. My blood pressure was dropping erratically and my baby’s heartbeat was beating less and less every contraction. So the OBGYN said that emergency c section was the best to save both of us. Anyway, I didnt shave when I was pregnant. I’m very petite and had a huge belly and couldn’t reach my legs or down there to shave and if I tried it would have been exhausting. So I had to ge shaved for surgery. Afterwards I heard the nurses talking about my hairy body and it honestly hurt so bad to hear them talk about me but I was kinda in and out of consciousness because of all the traumatic things that happened during the birth. After baby was safe and I was safe the nurse that said those comments was the one attending me. I wanted to say something to her. Stand up for myself. But I couldn’t I felt so insignificant compared to her. She was so beautiful after all and I was this ogre of a woman lol. And I felt very vulnerable.
Idk I was thinking about tha day. How I couldn’t stand up for myself and how I never really have stood for myself. Since I was a kid everyone commented on my looks. And I never not once have said something back. How can I stand up for my child if I can’t do it for myself?
Everytime I look at my hairy body I think about my inability to stand up for myself. Sorry if this doesn’t make sense and thank you for reading if you got this far.