Confused by myself
Recently I’ve been experimenting with anal play and I’ve found an addiction to it. I don’t feel exactly attracted to men but after experimenting by myself and watching a LOT of gay porn I did end up hooking up with a guy. He sucked me off so good I couldn’t stop thinking about it, and it was so fun. I couldn’t stop leaking pre cum, I came twice and after I finished in his mouth he held my cum in his mouth and we made out, sharing my cum in our mouths. I absolutely throughly enjoyed the experience but I don’t feel like I’d ever date or marry a guy and that makes me feel bad because I don’t want to accidentally hook up with someone to have some fun with them and end up with them expecting it’s something more.
This also doesn’t just apply to men I’d easily let a girl peg me till I cum. I can’t tell if it’s more of a love for anal and a kink for submitting to a sexual partner. It also doesn’t help that I’m a virgin and the first sexual act I’ve done was with a guy so I don’t really have much else to go off, at times I feel quick to label myself gay or straight and at times it feels better to leave it as just bi-curious but even that I don’t fully feel comfortable with. Ive fantasized and had dreams of letting both men and women cream pie me and the feeling of letting warm cum rush up my anus turns me on.
At this point I’m mainly just confused by it all, it’s been very overwhelming and I’m at a standstill.
Any words of advice or encouragement are more than welcome.