I haven’t seen my son since October, long story short his mum was abusive and when I reported to the police she refused to let me see him. I can’t go into detail but I am currently going through court and it is most definitely in my favour without a doubt but that doesn’t help the pain I’m feeling.
I can’t stop crying thinking about him, I miss him and love him so much, I just want to hold my baby. It’s like a piece of my heart is missing I hate it. I never wanted to miss a birthday with him, mine or his but here we are on my most ‘important’ birthday and all I wanna do is cancel plans and be sad as stupid as it is and I know it’s not the right thing to do but it feels so wrong celebrating a day that all I wanted was for it to be with my son.
I don’t even know why I’m posting this, I just feel alone, I just wanna know if it’ll get better or not