I cant touch my comfort plush anymore, its making me mad
Hello yall, i have been dealing with ocd for a while and i know what most will say, that i should ask r/ocd if it's about that, but i really cant. This is a burner account and i cant post there unfortunately.
The plush isnt some ugly thing instead its my favourite pokemon, but its obviousky a fake pokemon plush thus where my ocd and anxiety kicked in.
A while ago i had one of my worsts attack, making it feel eveyrthing was after me, even the plush that gave me comfort. It sucked and i couldnt even be near most of my things for a long time.
Im doing better kwo, but even now i cant even reach the doll from where its fallen. I feel like an absolute shit when i see it there. I want to hold it but the fear of the fabric might be dyed by poisonous cokours makes me mad. (There was a news about someone getting poisoned cause of imported clothes, i think i got the fear from that as the plush was shipped from outside as well)
I know the actual possibility of it is very low, but it freaks me out too much. Im not sure what to do or how to even approach it. Maybe i should leave it since i obviously cant even hold it but it makes me feel more guilty that it would be wasting money (it wasnt that expensive, even cheaper than some plushes but the price also makes me worry)