u/Cultural_Rent9014

I've been noticing some patterns in my behavior, and I'm wondering if they could be related to Borderline Personality Disorder (BPD). The last couple of months, these patterns have become more and more exhausting and my mental wellbeing has declined. I often struggle with:

• Getting upset when people don't respond to my messages, then feeling the need to ignore them back.
• Difficulty feeling happy for others, as it somehow feels like it threatens my own happiness.
• Sometimes feeling better when others fail at things, so I can feel better about myself.
• A very unstable sense of the future – my goals, career, and places I want to live change frequently. They change very rapidly based on my mood and things other people say.
• My opinions shifting depending on who I'm talking to.
• A need to lie in order to fit in or seem more similar to others.
• High levels of stress.
• Having stable friend groups, but still experiencing intense emotional shifts.
• Feeling misunderstood as a child, like I was "different" from others.
• Sometimes feeling empty, but not all the time.
• Having difficulty making decisions and always seeking approval from others.
• Asking Reddit for advice on almost every important life decision.
• ...

Does any of this sound familiar to BPD? I'm not sure if I'm just overthinking or if these could be signs of something more.