u/Cultural-Metal-1773

So, I think I was hypo-manic for a while the previous weeks, but now I've crashed. I feel pretty bad, feel sad and deflated, don't really want to do anything. I just feel like going and laying in bed and scrolling my phone. I don't really want to eat, I don't want to study even if I should. Nothing feels good really. This sucks. The hypo-manic state didn't really feel good either, it was mostly being restless, anxious and agitated. I guess it felt better than whatever I'm feeling right now though.

Any advice? I hope I can get on some medication soon, I pray it will make me euthymic.

I have a psychiatrists appointment to get to the bottom of what's going on with me lined up.

But, I strongly suspect Bipolar 2. I am not asking anyone to diagnose or give me medical advice.

I am just curious to your experiences with bipolar 2 and paranoia.

For me, there are times when I end up obsessing over previous interactions and am afraid that they think poorly of me and are going to talk badly about me behind my back and spread rumors. Or that some secret of mine will end up somehow being brought to light and that my friends know about them. Or sometimes I fear that people in public are staring at me and judging me.

(I am not asking if this is Bipolar 2 or not.)