u/Cultural-Aspect-9865

Ok so let's just say I have a coworker who I've been interested in for some time. To cut a long story short...I've made multiple errors in judgement and how I've handled this situation in the past but I now believe that she does actually like me too. I'm learning to trust my gut rather than let anxious thoughts make the decision for me. However this wouldn't be the first time I've read things wrong but that's just the feeling I have right now.

Question

If someone made conscious efforts in the past to avoid you and not speak after initially liking you in that way, but after some time with that dynamic they changed suddenly and is now a bit more present, smiling and generally with a more positive demeanour around you...would you assume that they are trying to be more positive etc in general around you just to make the workplace easier on both of you or would you think that they might be trying to show that more open and friendly, chatty body language in attempt to see if you are still interested?

Do I trust my instinct here and risk another misstep or do I give it time and see what happens gradually through time? I don't want to miss any potential hints if that's what she is trying to do but still I can't afford to make a poor judgement choice. Not again and not with this person in particular.

I don't want to want you but still at the same time I do want to want you more than you'll probably ever realise. I know that we would destroy each other ultimately or at least that's the conclusion I've came to, I don't know anymore really. Nothing seems to gel like it should on a personal and emotional level between us and there's probably many reasons for that on both ends. We live very different lives don't we

Yet every time I look at you all of that goes out the window and I know exactly what I want and where I want you. You have this crazy hold on me without even trying and I've never had that sort of tension with anyone before. There are times when I'm positive you can read me better than I'm able to read myself in a moment like that. So tell me...am I right?