My brother archieved in one trip what i chased for years
I got into psychedelics, especially LSD, mainly for one reason. I wanted to cure myself of mental illness. I got into it chasing motivation and discipline, and the trips have been great, but I also found in myself the root of all these negative symptoms. I feel deeply ashamed all the time. I cannot even say what I am ashamed of; it’s just a hum always keeping me company and stopping me from doing pretty much anything. No meditating or tripping ever really helped with the shame.
My brother visited me for the weekend. He is kinda into weed but never tried anything more. That weekend we went out to a rave and had the opportunity to try Molly. It was pretty great for both of us, and we bonded even more as siblings. Over the night, I already noticed that he started to dance more freely and became more open to people.
After the weekend, he says he feels cured of “cringe.” He is motivated, cleans his apartment, and has started pursuing a woman that he likes. All things he struggled with before now come much easier to him.
I am really happy for him, and he seems to have a much better time than me because he doesn’t overthink his highs. It is hard to write this without sounding jealous, but I am mainly in awe of how funny psychedelics can be. I know that they don’t give me what I want because I chase it, and it is a great lesson that it comes easier to him because he never “asked” the substances for anything.
I am sharing this for no real reason, but I am happy to hear your thoughts. Just wanted to tell somebody.
TLDR: I tripped dozens of times trying to cure myself of shame, and my brother did it his first time on some Molly lol