u/Ctr1a1tde1eted

In a couple days itll be 10 years since my dad passed away. He was my best friend and I was only a teenager when he died.

Its weighing heavy on me, if I think about it too long I cry. I have to excuse myself to the bathroom or sit in the shower and cry.

None of my friends have lost their parents yet, nor my spouse. I feel totally alone, nobody checks in on me, or even remembers his birthday or anniversary. It's like he doesnt exist any more.

I got married, my dream career and had kids, and he didnt get to see any of it.

I am not OK and I dont think I can face another anniversary.