Im tagging this as bipolar because I am bipolar and I feel like my emotions are all over the place because of this. I get oddly attached certain characters in games 🤪🤪
I know its not the authors' fault/its fan service for free so I cant be picky/AND it doesnt mean their vagueposting IS about me/ALSO i know that my mental illness doesnt mean they should be my slaves and write for me. Now that thats out of the way...
I have been fucking sobbing and it makes me feel like an idiot. I SHOULD be okay with writers doing their own thing but i felt like an idiot setting up two writers a similar request only for BOTH of them to be like either "man... writing a fic youre not into is boring" and the other saying "im taking a break from writing [insert yume]! Sorry but ive done enough" and im like auyghhhgghggh i just wanted to do something for myself for once and I cant help but feel like im going crazy just trying to self soothe.
I know i should write for myself. I know its not their fault and they have EVERY RIGHT TO DO SO. I just hate how my brain cant function feeling the rejection and ive actually been crying about this (dont hate on me for this im already mad about it myself for crying) just... ugh...