u/CrustyCracklyTowel

I was playing the game and the screens went black. The PC was making a clicking sound and the fans would spin briefly then turn off again. And then it would click they would briefly spin and turn off again. Happened about 4-5 times, now the PC wont turn on at all except the fans twitch then stop the ram RGB stays on when I try to power it up. Could it be a failed power supply and replacing it would fix the issue or should I send it in somewhere they look over the whole PC as I know nothing about them.

Feeling at my (29M) wits end with this. Ive always been a reassurance seeking individual who had to know for sure somethings. From a young age (10) I was introduced to porn and have basically been using it at least once a day ever since trying anal and regular masturbation. However stopped anal masturbation a few years ago as I found I could no longer enjoy it while dealing with OCD as it always brought up rumination’s about myself. I have always been attracted to girls ever since I can remember and not once to men in a sexual way or emotional way. When I was around 18 I was watching porn of a woman performing a rimjob on a man and finished and it made me think what was I really finishing to. I had an insane amount of anxiety for the first time in my life and started questioning everything about myself and my sexuality. Checking arousal levels when passing attractive men on the street and many other intrusive thoughts. It has since spitballed into far worse things like thinking of my own family members of the same sex. Doubting my relationship with my fiancé. Thinking of same sex anal and checking for a response which I almost always have groinal response and lubrication. Which of course is so confusing because it feels the same physically as arousal however I know its different because of how it makes me feel emotionally (disgusted, anxious, terrified). And it always feels like there is a whole other person in my head saying things like “I am gay”, “I would fuck him” etc and it feels so seperate from me. As time has gone on it has started to effect me less and less in terms of debilitating anxiety but lately its just been too much and made me contemplate some darker thoughts like suicide. Like I know I love my mrs with all my heart, and I know I’m attracted to her/women as I always have been. I know that ruminating and checking and all the other things I’ve been told in therapy are bad I just cant seem to get over it and its very debilitating. Ive fallen into old traps of checking if i enjoy gay pornography and of course i get heightened anxiety and groinal response. If I was bi or gay I really would not mind and my partner (who knows of my issues of course) is so supportive its not like that has anything to do with it. At the end of the day I could be bi-sexual but I deep down and emotionally know this is not the case. So why cant I move past it? I have no issues having sex with my partner and almost always have no intrusive thoughts or anything when we engage in sex. She turns me on easily. I was reading some information online about the links between porn addiction and SO-OCD and now wondering if I have just wired my brain to think dicks and butts are hot from all the straight sex I’ve masturbated to simply because there is a man in the frame. Ive never masturbated to gay sex because I never felt like I wanted to even with groinal responses it just always felt like they were a side effect of my OCD. I also know that this post may be some form of reassurance seeking but I have had a horrible time lately and needed to speak out somewhere. I just want to get past these rumination’s, compulsions etc. And this voice in my head that doesn’t even feel like its mine questioning myself about something it feels like I already know and have always known.