How to openly talk with parents?
I had undergone a personal conflict with another person at school. It's now summer vacation and I'm looking back at what happened and it's pretty serious than what I had imagined.
I am pretty young (under 16) and experienced no personal/social problems at school until the recent school year. It really pressured me because I didn't know what to do and all I could think of is to apologize. My best friend knew about it because we're both in the conflict together. I'm not downgrading my friend or anything but I was probably the one who apologized the most and who thought of it deeply. My best friend themself said "I dont care". It was reasonable why they said that because we don't have anything to apologize for.
I don't wanna address or explain what the problem/conflict was because it's not what the main focus and what I'm referring to as "serious."
Ever since my best friend said that, I did admire her for being mature. I didn't talk to her about how it deeply it affected me or how it made me cry even. Because I was scared that they will judge me.
My family is no different.
My mother provides me everything but we don't give "I love you" and hugs to each other anymore. I can't even tell my siblings that are older and who probably experienced the same. I talked to an AI and it gave me advices that helped. But I realised that it's not healthy and to think of it, being more comfortable talking to something that doesn't even exist is sad.
Im too scared to talk to my mother. I have her and my best friend but I feel like I don't have anyone.
I am also addressing that my problem right now is not as serious as anyones. I just wanna get advice from you guys because I don't know what to do.