u/CripplingGoodTime

It's been a while since I've had a really good friend in my corner. I'm mid thirties, Est time zone. Just looking for cool people in my life. I was born with a really debilitating disease that weakens me, been in a wheelchair 20+ years, don't get out much, it's a lot. I'm really nerdy, love video games, scifi, fantasy, comics. I also really like sports, basketball, baseball, football. I like talking about anything though. History, science, AI, conspiracies, etc. I'm not great at making these posts but I'm hoping someone will give it a shot.

I have a really really bad physical disability. It's a really debilitating thing, I'll be lucky to make it to 45 (I'm almost 37 at this time). I've only ever been in long distance relationships (which does help because I get to be emotionally close and connect with someone). I've never been kissed, definitely never been touched in a intimate way.  I do somewhat feel bad for wishing I could have sex so bad, part of me feels like I should just be greatful for being able to be in long distance relationships. My current one is going really really great. But we can't be together right now and I don't know when we can. I'm incredibly worried my health will decline and make it impossible. I just want to be intimate and not be a virgin anymore. Am I a bad person?