u/Crejzijas

Did we just masturbate?

I’ve reached the point in life- earlier twenties if that matters- where I’ve just started to take an interest in the idea of sex (as one does) and I’ll at some point, hopefully in the near future, be having sex. However- and this has been an ongoing insecurity of mine (though it does fluctuate, somedays I’m like ‘eh, every body is different’ and others I’m questioning what I did to deserve two dangling, deflated teste’s looking lips) that started growing, and growing during the beginning of puberty. And I guess my question is *does* appearance truly matter? I know that when the time comes I’ll have no preference on someone else’s genitalia so what is with this self-consciousness from something entirely out of my control

I would like to finally add I am not a porn watcher so I don’t think it stems from any specific porn-induced doubt- any and all advice from anyone is greatly appreciated.