u/Creature_Feature69

My parents keep calling me and suggesting that I come home next quarter.

I failed big time last year despite a 4.10 GPA in high school. I had to fully take a quarter off after the registrar fucked me over. I got doubly fucked over because of my low GPA automatically making a quarter off into a withdrawal. The fails were mostly poor time management combined with untreated adhd.

2 quarters later, I am being haunted by my failures. I used to base my entire self-worth on academic, now I'm beginning to place it on attractiveness and sexual success even though I'm fugly with no game.

On top of that, I am living in one of the worst rental markets in the U.S. My parents don't pay my rent, so I need to work, which takes from my studies.

I feel like if I go back home, I lose forever. Like it's one of those choices that forks you into a new path in life. Especially with the economy the way it is. I think I'll hypothetically end up living with my parents, never amounting to much, and eventually I'll probably delete myself.

I know a lot of younger adults feel behind, but I used to be SO ahead, and I don't think most of them resort to the conclusions that I do.

Older people tell me that failiure is a part of college and that I'm so young and still have choice, but the university system I'm in does not believe the same. If I want to return to college with my current GPA, they probably won't let me regardless of whether I went to community college in the gap.