This sucks but it won't be forever
I won"t wonder what I did to deserve this, what I did so wrong, forever. I won't obsessed over how I missed all the warning signs and red flags forever. I won't constantly be on edge forever. I won't feel unsafe forever. I wont want to run away forever. I wont feel tossed aside forever. I wont doubt or blame myself forever.
Eventually it will get better. Eventually I wont want to hide. Eventually I will trust again. Eventually I will not believe that it's better to be alone and guarded than to be in a relationship.
I have to believe it will get better. I have to believe that finally taking the chance and going after the life I've always wanted, no matter how unconventional, will not only work but be worth it. That I'll truly be happy. I have to believe that it wont suck forever.