I forgot to pay a toll bill and we got a new one in the mail yesterday with about $100 in fees. My fiancée is furious and I don’t blame him. He’s felt like he has to ask me to do everything and while I’ve been genuinely trying to be better, I haven’t been able to and I never even considered telling my psychiatrist who I see every month.
I know stimulants help. I have a prescription of Adderall just sitting in my drawer that I only use for days I know I need to get things done. I feel so foolish. So I took it this morning and it’s a huge difference, I’ve done all of my chores before I have to go to work. Problem is I crash hard but I suppose I just have to deal with it. I need to take charge of this and take it seriously before I lose everything.
I don’t know what to say to my fiancée, who has his own mental health things he deals with. He is hurt and I feel terrible. I guess I’m just looking for some reassurance.