Maladaptive daydreaming
18 F and I feel like I have ruined my academic and future by maladaptive daydreaming
It started when I was around 13 during covid. I got completely distracted by my laptop watching anime and Wattpad. I stopped studying entirely. When my mom found out that I was reading wattpad she beat the shi of me and mentally verbally she abused me it was soo hard for me to stay at home I used to be really happy child but when covid Started things went down hill
To cope, I strated avoiding everything I would sleep whole day just to avoid interacting with my parents I skipped classes and slowly I strated escaping into my imagination creating alternate lives where everything felt better like in anime or wattpad stories that became my comfort.
Later I faced my consequences I failed in 9th grade because I didn’t do ntg in covid and skipped classes , my whole high school my marks were low asf
This addiction pulling me back I tried meditation and controlling it but i get distracted ik my triggers music reels head phones I go back to it again
I feel stuck I am so tired of this I know I have potential but I feel like wasting my life I just want to get better i want normal genuinely happy life like other ppl my age where I can experience real world