u/Correct_Passion_7430

Hello all,

I'm gonna get straight to the point:

I really want to be a writer, but I need to have zero obligations (apart from chores) in order for me to be able to get into the right mood/produce good stuff.
If I do that, however, I lose money and my social status. I'm an extremely respected and "popular" person and I really don't want to lose that.
I also feel depressed, probably because my love life is not fulfilled, but I'm convinced that love will only make me miserable, and so I keep avoiding it. I feel like love would make me happy, but deter me from writing, and writing is my purpose.

Right now, I'm going in circles just feeling miserable and not getting anything done.

What should I do?