growing up without romantic attention
Hellooo, I’m 21 years old, and lately I’ve been feeling sad. I grew up without romantic attention. I’ve tried relationships, but the guys I tried getting with either didn’t really like me, were long distance so they didn’t last long, or were weird/creepy (these guys were from dating apps). So I’ve never been in a relationship, never had my first kiss, or even held hands.
I’ve also become over-engaged in dating, and what that looks like for me is that I get attached too quickly (this sucks because it eventually results in me pushing people away once I start liking them). I constantly seek reassurance, overthink, ignore red flags to keep relationships, and feel crushed over small signs of rejection. For example, I found out a friend I liked was talking to another girl, so I got super sad and pushed him away, and now we’re not friends anymore.
I also overanalyze interactions, but only with people I have crushes on. What can I do to stop all of this? It’s making me more depressed 😭
I have been playing otomes though, lmao. It kinda helps.
(Had to edit this cuz it was hard to read, sorry)